Well at 2:00 a.m. on Monday September 3rd I arrived at my new temporary home in Illinois. As of now I’m living with my grandparents until we get all this financial junk settled than we will get our own place, but it’s all cool. I will be attending Bradely- Bourbonnais Community High School (BBCHS). I am officially a Boilermaker. Man that bombs it’s the long name and the queer mascot all in one but hey I was also a griffin so I guess it’s not that big of a deal.
Well I’m not going to lie Sunday between 7:45 and 10:00 were the hardest 2 hours and 15 minutes of my life. All the tears and snot flying everywhere it was nuts. I mean seriously if I had a stalker and they wanted my snot they could probably go to about twenty peoples houses ask for the shirt they wore on sunday and even though they washed it they could still get some. It was CRAZY.
But all day all I could think about is how hard it’s going to be leaving the church and not having everyone to keep me in line who I know I could turn to for anything if I was struggling. I just thought it’s going to be so hard being a christian. Well than I started reading the cards and letters people wrote me and idk if it’s wrong to say this but I found it more uplifting than a bible. I never really realized how many people actually looked up to me I always thought it was just something somebody said to make sure you stayed in line. I just began to get all choked up reading them. I really got choked up on the short ones. Cause don’t take this offenseivlly or anything but the ones that were the shortest were from the ones I was closest to. Like Pauls was a few sentences and Byrd’s was as well but those two mean the most to me. Don’t get me wrong I can’t even say how much I appreciate everybody notes I mean you could ask my mom I had to pause a few times and than catch my breath and keep on reading.
Well Jamie gave me this book called Jesus Freak’s and it’s stories about martyr’s and it has quotes and other stuff like that. I opened it thinking man this isn’t gonna help this is just about people dying for christ. (I also hate to read so it was weird just opening it). but as I read I realized there really isn’t a difference. I’m leaving where I feel known, comforted, I’m leaving my original routine to move to a state that has no life. God’s placed me here for a purpose and I just keep thinking about that when I get hurt or tempted or angry. I just know I’m here for a reason and I just need to stay focused on that.
Well In the book I read this quote from the ApostolePaul he said ” your insults don’t bring me down or shut me up instead they bring me a pulpit” Well after I picked up my jaw off the ground from getting smoked I sent it in a text to tweeze paul and tyler. This was just like wow cause usually when you get insulted your just like ” Well by golly that just hurt real bad” but why look for the hurt in the insult when you can look for the hurt in the person. They insulted you because they know what you say is true and they got something going on and it upsets them.
Well you know I couldn’t write a blog without preaching a little. but I’m gonna go play in the bean field in the front yard. (that was a joke) but yeah uhh pray for me cause I need it. Oh and my sister started a blog you should go check it out. www.maddiefattiecakes.wordpress.com I came up with the name lol it’s awesome. HOLLA AT ME FO REAL.
Love and miss you guys,
T-Barry
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Thank you for blogging! We miss ya man. We are already planning a trip up there to see you guys. I know that you are going to rock the Boilermakers! I can just hear it Boilermakers for Jesus. Get out there and shake up Illinois.
T-BARRY!!!!!!!!!
You totally left without saying goodbye to me!!!!!
But, thats awesome about what you said, I know God has a purpose for you.
-Phill
make me cry all over again!!
of course, i’ve been praying for y’all like crazy…especially since every five minutes i see something that reminds me of you!
but like you said…it’s all God’s plan. so do it with strength- like you already are.
you guys are the best ever!!! i’m not just saying that.
p.s. i’m trying to plan a big trip up there in april!! lol.
keep the ferrets alive…
thanks for the update my friend. i was praying for you today and im just so pumped to know that God has moved you up there for a reason, and He knew you would be able to make it without us, without HPC, but relying totally on Him. its scary, but i think you are going to have a chance to grow in your faith more than you could staying here. its your mission field BABAAAYYYY. whoop whoooooop. stand up, stand out, change. . .illionois!
-leah
(and i WILL see you in the africaaaa)
Freak, bruh! You make me smile, dude, and I just wanted to say you were sorely missed at One Way which was off the heasy by the way! But the last song they did was Future Decided, and I couldn’t help but think of us singing that song in Annex during Equip! Well, I just wanted to say whassup, and man, I miss you! Dude, we are so going to Africa! Okay, w/God nothing is impossible! Read the story about Indestructible John, BABY!
I Hear they got skateparks up there all over the place. Theres a cool one in grand haven… I m comin up to sk8 with ya soon.
b cool
Well I know we weren’t very close and so it probably doesn’t mean much but I’m really going tto miss you. I knew though the second I found out you were leaving God had something for you to do. I knew you weren’t going there in vain. I know God has huge plans for you. I also know the devil, I’m sure, is trying to bring the Uprising down but all he’s done is make us stand together stronger. God has taken something that we were upset about and He’s going to change lives. Well, I just thought I’d tell you that and I’ll be praying for you.